one year.
two months.
one week.
one day.
that's how long i've been waiting for my new daughter.
I'M STILL WAITING!
Tonight I'm feeling defeated. I was told it would take 12-14 months for the process of adopting from Ethiopia. Even if I took the longer time period, my daughter should have been home within 14 months (that would have been one year and two months)!!
I DON'T EVEN HAVE A REFERRAL! And I'm looking at SEVERAL more months.
WHY is this happening? Family and friends continue to ask on the progress and I have no new news to share. Still waiting. And they all have compassion and just the "right" words to say. But for some reason God has said not yet. WHY? WHY? WHY? I'm glad that I serve a God who allows me to question and listens to my crying each night. I do feel his arms around me, but it's still hard.
very hard.
So that's where I'm at tonight.
defeated.
Oh and the picture is from last Saturday afternoon. We were making carmel corn and puppy chow and Abby loves to lick the bowl. She is definitely my bright spot. :)
4 comments:
MAYBE God is waiting for me to leave the Northern Hemisphere, so that you can have another family member come to the Northern Hemisphere!! huh. think about that!!
(I think Ethiopia is in the Southern Hemisphere....)
I'll call you tomorrow!
love you!
I remember feeling the same feelings during my long China wait. I feel that wait led me to my Ethiopian daughter. I know is is so hard, sad and frustrating. Please know, I understand and am here if you need to vent. I will pray that you get that call soon!
I know I haven't met you, but I have DEFINITELY been thinking of you as these months tick on with no referral for you...and many others. I'm not blessed with "great words" to pass on, I just wanted you to know that you are being thought of by this stranger who felt every moment of a long wait for our youngest daughter as well. :)
Jess i'm sorry I can't agree, Becky, God is waiting until Jess is back so that she and I can spoil your new daughter (duh). (this is Sarah Anthony Jessie's friend..haha not some random Sarah). Psalm 138:8. Hang in there (I loved Abby's Popsicle quote too, adorable!)
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